My Different Self

Yes, I ran away once. But I’m still here and a part of me is there.

I have two selves. Am I cool or what?

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Kadang2

Kadang2 saye nak attention, tp yg dpt adalah tension.

Kadang2 saye pilih untuk kekal begini tapi hati saye nak jadi begitu. Tapi bila dah jadi begitu, saye nak kembali jadi begini pula.

Kadang2 saye rasa mcm down gile tapi kalau ada org nk sembang, saye rasa ok. Pastu bila kembali seoang, saye down balik.

Kadang2 saye rasa yg salah itu adalah betul walhal saye sudah mumaiyiz (da lama da kot. HAHAHA)

Kadang2 saye rasa saye mampu nk tahan ujian yang Tuhan nak bagi sebab saye percaya yang Tuhan bagi ujian ikut mana yg hamba-Nya mampu. Tapi sakit di dalam dada nak melawan diri sendiri ni ya Allah, Tuhan je la tahu. And it’s when nak lawan perasaan ingin membuat salah tu. sampai tahap nak halal kan yg salah tu. pergh payah. ahahahahahahahah

Kadang2

Apa pun, yang pasti, saye belum berhenti menghukum diri sendiri. Sakit di dalam -seluar- dada yang tak dapat di ekspresi. But in the same time, I thank God for what He had given me.

My life is complicated but I always tried to make it simple. I’m.. Simplicated? ngahahahahahahha

Batu Bulan

Short say, I bought a cincin (not to be taken into the japanese meaning) because I felt like I want to accesorize my hands. So here it is, with (claimed to be) a moonstone on it.

So there I went, bought it for a cheap price, ONLY able to wear it on my jari korek lubang….. lubang apa? lubang hidung~ itsy bitsy teeny weeny eenie meenie miney moe jari kelingking. i chose the ring for it’s corak ukir kat tepi tu and the selection of the stone was solely on the color (sebab ada 3 kaler kot yg ada corak gtu, and I forgot the color of the other two). And after purchasing it, confirmed back with the seller and he claims it again, moonstone. (dalam hati ada taman cam, gemstone kot. nape murah. ah lantak la. kekeke)

Then bought it, googled it, i found disc this one and disc this two

Ironi di sebalik ini?

Saye bertekad untuk mengawal emosi dan depresi dgn lbih baik.

Saye mahu reti berenang.

saye mahu memahami lebih banyak bende (selama ni mental block kot. huhuhu).

dan saye sering diganggu oleh suara2 dalaman yg saye slalu konfius adakah ia gerak hati atau

and some other things.

Repeat reading the first sentence of the entry

and after reading the ‘these’,

it’s just so happen that I needed it!

But yeah it’s not to trust the ring, it has always been to trust God.

But I hope that this ring can be a reminder for me to be better in the way that I wanted.

ironic

[quote]

Moonstone can unblock those feelings in both men AND women who are afraid to acknowledge or experience consciously how they feel on a personal and internal level. (whatever that means)

p/s: jari kelingking. takde makna apa2 kan. whee

Duit tumbuh sayap dan terbang ke sarang tersembunyi

Hari ni saye memulakan invesment yg baru. semoga ini membuatkan hidup saye gembira dan teratur dan berkat.

satu – Saye buka akaun tabung haji (gila lambat kan)

dua – Saye register Fitness First.

wheee

Personal problem

Seringkali aku dibelenggu masalah yg aku tak buleh nk cerita kat orang

nape aku takleh cerite kat orang? aku pun tak tau. the fact that aku mmg x faham masalah aku, dan aku tak cukup ilmu nak selesaikan sniri, x cukup kekuatan, dan tak berpendirian yang tahap takde kaki.  takut kesal la takut silap la takut gagal la.

aku bersyukur ngan hidup aku, tak kesah apa kecacatan dan kekurangan yang Tuhan bagi, tapi having other people involved in this really disturbs me.

>_<

T-T

eh nape masih ada pembaca. blog ni tak best dah. syuh syuh

Peluru. whee

Let’s try swallowing the bullet and fake a smile.

Meanwhile the bullet bursts inside

and still you fake a smile